The biggest thing for me right now is the lack of clarity and processing power on the laptop. What makes me so mad is that I know my Mac can do EVERY THING I need it to do but I cannot sit or stand long enough to do it. I am currently typing this on the Mac and it is too much.
I am to the point where I don’t care what is wrong with me I just want to feel better. I want to take a shower without feeling like I was beaten with a baseball bat. I want pick up the Booga (get him out of the crib, put him in his high chair, etc.) I want to be able to walk, I miss my walks to get my daughter from school. I want to play in my garden before my plants die (every time I walk outside I see another plant bite the dust because it wasn’t watered). I hate pain killers I tough it out as long as possible because they just take the edge off, the pain is still there (so what is the point of taking them at all). I honestly could care less if it is cancer at least I would know what is wrong with me. I’m sorry this post sort of turned into a bitchfest that was not my intention but I am frustrated beyond frustrated. I am tired of feeling like crap every single day it is annoying and I am tired of it.
Well the stool is getting the better of me and I still have a couple more things to do so I must run before I can’t walk. Hopefully, Monday I will get the answers I want (need) so I can start an appropriate course of action besides feeling like a lazy bum on the couch.