The biggest thing for me right now is the lack of clarity and processing power on the laptop. What makes me so mad is that I know my Mac can do EVERY THING I need it to do but I cannot sit or stand long enough to do it. I am currently typing this on the Mac and it is too much.
I am to the point where I don’t care what is wrong with me I just want to feel better. I want to take a shower without feeling like I was beaten with a baseball bat. I want pick up the Booga (get him out of the crib, put him in his high chair, etc.) I want to be able to walk, I miss my walks to get my daughter from school. I want to play in my garden before my plants die (every time I walk outside I see another plant bite the dust because it wasn’t watered). I hate pain killers I tough it out as long as possible because they just take the edge off, the pain is still there (so what is the point of taking them at all). I honestly could care less if it is cancer at least I would know what is wrong with me. I’m sorry this post sort of turned into a bitchfest that was not my intention but I am frustrated beyond frustrated. I am tired of feeling like crap every single day it is annoying and I am tired of it.
Well the stool is getting the better of me and I still have a couple more things to do so I must run before I can’t walk. Hopefully, Monday I will get the answers I want (need) so I can start an appropriate course of action besides feeling like a lazy bum on the couch.
Amanda, you hang in there please!! Once they find out what's wrong then they can fix it. I know how you feel but don't let the pain get the better of you. If you wait until you can't stand it anymore the pain killer is just playing catch up. I'm praying for you.Hugs XXBarbara